Born into a poor family of 5 where I am the youngest, we were nicknamed the dark-side of beauty because of the deformed shape of my mother and dwarf size of my father, we were seen to be so unfortunate not only were we poor but not physically presentable or attractive. Not that we beg on the street nor ask for alms, we were not seen to be fortunate because of our look. No one wanted to flow with me, no one wanted to be my friend, always bullied day and night by people and nearly raped twice by people I took as uncle and the most painful part of it was that I don’t deserve love it or feel like I need love
Now 21 years of age, still lonely with no real friend except my bestie that keeps telling me that I am beautiful and amazing not knowing that the beauty he was referring to was my character. I took after the muse behaviour of my mum and was her exact carbon copy in all the way I act. Unknown to me, my bestie was attracted to me but I didn’t know. Even.when he tells me that I am beautiful, I cry and feel he is mocking me more because people don’t make me feel beautiful at all. Only did I fail to understand that those that loves you for you can only give you a pure love.
PS *IF YOU ARE WANTED FOR WHAT YOU HAVE OR WHAT YOU PROCESS, THEN YOU ARE NOT LOVED
Finally I gained admission into the university to read my deserve course MEDICINE but seriously, I saw beautiful looking girls in the department that I didn’t feel I belong here but because of my friendly behavior, I tried been acquainted to them but the statement EWWW WE CANT MOVE WITH YOU, WE CANT AFFORD TO STAIN OUR IMAGE YUCK was always said to me continuously. I felt so bad, never in my life did I feel like I wanted to die. When I told my bestie how my look was used to make me feel little, he always tried to encourage me. There was a time I was so sick that he stayed with me all through and never did i know my friend was into me despite him having a girlfriend, I just thought he was been friendly abi??
PS *IF YOUR SIZE, SHAPE, LOOK OR FINANCIAL STATUS ARE REASONS WHY PEOPLE CANT BE WITH YOU, YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY THAT THEY ARE SAVING YOU THE HEARTBREAK THAN FOOLING YOU
When the harassment was too much, I wanted to stop schooling because I hated my look so much that I couldn’t stand in front of a mirror anymore because I can’t stand my look at all. When I got the to meet my bestie crying, I wondered “DOES MEN TOO CRY?* I asked him what the problem is and he told me that he caught his girlfriend kissing another guy. OH LORD, why Na!! Fine boy like him, very generous and yet he was hurt but yet never did i know he wasn’t really hurt , he wanted me all along but I didn’t notice him and not that I didn’t notice him,i just didn’t feel beautiful enough to be noticed.
One day I was just discussing how it will feel like to feel love one day and be with someone that sees me to be beautiful and make me feel beautiful and all along that I was telling him how I felt, he was just smiling and blooming stares at me. I got really uncomfortable and shy that I just looked away and walked away but deep down for the first time,i felt shy inside me and surprisingly felt beautiful because I know it’s only when Someone is beautiful that’s when they will be stared at. Then one day, he came out to tell me how he felt. Instead of me feeling amazed, I had this feeling of anger inside me because I felt he was making Mockery of me and I have him a very dirty slap and warned him to never mock him again.
PS *WHEN WE ARE CONSTANTLY FILLED WITH A WRONG BELIEVE ABOUT THINGS, WE GET ACCUSTOMED TO THAT BELIEVE PLUS LOVE IS VERY SCARY ESPECIALLY WHEN ITS COMES AT YOUR GUARDED HOUR
For 2 Month, i ignored my bestie but deep down I missed him. I wanted to reach out to him but I was do sure he was mocking me. Unknown to me, he had a surprise for me that will melt me so badly. When I couldn’t take it in anymore, I went to beg him and show an apology to him but he wasn’t anywhere offended in me,instead he knelt down and apologized to me then started confessing his mind to me. At that point, my head swelled so big that I was like maybe I was in the could. At that point, I felt love so loved that I didn’t know when I started crying. I asked him how he could love an ugly girl like myself and he said *IT IS YOUR INNER BEAUTY THAT MAKES YOUR OUTSIDE BEAUTY GLOW* I didn’t know when he kissed me. At that point , I never felt ugly again. I believed I was beautiful because you are beautiful only when you act beautiful.
Lesson: Never feel ugly, never see yourself to be ugly for you are what you believe. Alot of those movie stars and vividly gorgeous looking celebrities are having their fan base because of their status and that doesn’t mean they are not hated by at least someone!! Many ladies hide under makeup and when they remove their makeup, you wonder if you missed road or you dreaming!!
CHARACTER WILL ALWAYS HAVE AN HIGHER HAND TO BEAUTY
Good morning
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